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Feeling: Farewell wtf
Soundtrack: Colbie Caillat-Capri

Hello world.

Sorry to abandon this journal. Sorry for not updating. I am even sorrier for not smiling at strangers anymore now days. Believe you me,

This moment and my current leaps are mine now.

Its either I take this huge leap with a soar of faith or lose it.

So I am really juicing out every single efforts inside of me. Probably abit more than Every Single, with a bit of hope in me everyday. Hope for a leeway to gain as much experience of a lifetime, to have a laugh, to see beyond the ordinary and most importantly, to live.

But that means a big sacrificing on my normal living life, my sleeping hours and my daydreaming period. It is almost impossible to sleep nowadays. Now that we are due to 3 final project in a week, yes,  A WEEK; I REALLY DON’T KNOW HOW AM I GONNA GET THROUGH THIS, honestly.

Every night I would waste approximately, uh, okay lets just put in approximately a long long time to rant pointlessly at a victim.

Me: HOMG *insert name here* I KNOT HABIS MY CD(color diary)! MY POP UP COLORING NOT DONE! MY GWEN’S BRA IS FREAKING HELL! I am STRESSSSSSSSS GILA.

Ev: Good Luck Fella, come I sing song for you (type lyrics..)

LZK: Haiyoh can one lah dun so stress go sleep color fast I also stress.

Tiny: Be positive, eat ice cream (smtg like that)

Like that, this 3 my most kacau-ed victims.

 

 Thing is, I don’t really bothered on what advice they sincerely gave, I hope.

I just need some one to take on my endless rants and crap, just so that I don’t have to talk to the wall and stuck my under toe into my nose : /

You take this as bimbo pointless gibberish. I don’t care man. This is call my method of distressing, and cause my fridge is out of ice cream.



And Proof on my classmates PM:

Zhi Eng: Final Projects+ Presentation+ Exams

Kane: The Busy Academy | Mai Dang Lau De Yue Ding -Haha they all complete assignment in McDonald everyday until they are part of the one big family with workers there edi haha.

Fann: Who can help me finish all my assignments?

Tiny: Okay basically theres nothing there right now but I can guarantee you it is a RAWRRRR last night heh.

Raymond: Shit! My MYVI mirror CRACK. –okay whatever man, this must be cause by the amount of stress.

Angie: Die Oredi | Strength = 0%

Kenny: I miss you –EHM this one too stress until like that edi SEE?!

Yee Hong: Birthday over back to Hell.

Kah Hoe: Lecturers, I beg you, no more assignments pls!

Florence: I wanna burn TOA!! So that I can pass up my assignments later D: -haha she funny lah.

LZK: Next Week is Hell Week.

Seany: What if… -okay whatever I just assume this is he predicting days of not completing the assignment HOMG.

So class story next time round, I promise a good LONG story for you to read whole night long.My class is awesome :0). Kinof reminds me of FICM. Right now I just wanna update a few matters and then be gone with my projects. Just in case I die half way doing, please do help me complete it as well sigh.

So then, todays highlight- Tah Eve Lynn.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, so Emily went and fetch me home frm TOA as usual, Normal routine. And we spent another good old half and hours to decide WHAT to eat, as usual. Then Emily the queen bee aka driver made an announcement, that we all have to GIVE CHANCE to those hidden area like USJ 9 restaurant, and not to eat continuously in Pyramid atau Taipan. And after she finished, she gave a big nod to herself in the mirror like some senator and start to drive there.

And we randomly picked one Spanish restaurant.

Why? No reason.

Right so cut the crap of us eating like a buffalo with that 70 era Mexican songs playing behind. Gosh how the hell people digest the food with that song lah my god, summore we have Ev there, she learnt to sing that song in like 15 minutes, and you can see her ass and body slightly moving, means she having the karaoke session fever edi.

AND THEN, haha,

Out of the simplicity things going around, Tah Eve Lynn have a hand body sudden vibrate moment and stretch out her hand, and that’s it.

The mango lime drink in the glass shoot straight up to David (Em’s bro) like rocket and his face turned into those expression you see on blockbuster movie when they avoiding a gunshot, and freezes there, shockingly stunned.

HAHAHAHAHA, And what did both me and Emily did? Laugh till roll floors lah my good..

Ev busy with her Pai Se-ing.

Those hahaha wasn’t merly just for fun, it was also because Ev manage to pour the drink and BREAK THE GLASS. Now that’s the fun part haha. Well eh she kinof beautify the glass lah my god but too bad she still have to pay up for the damage. I nearly puff out my mouthful of mango drink when the manager brought the bill for a broken glass.

With SERVICE TAX. ROFL.

Exactly what service provided we have no idea, maybe the picking up broken glass session and ask Ev, Miss are you hokay?

Exactly RM 4.03. Homg funny.

Blame the moment the waiter brought out our after meal fruits lah. One pathetic plate with 5 tiny slice of honeydews with 3 forks around. Nothing else. Just the white background and the 5 fruits. And then Ev break the glass cause her laughter vibration are like super terror one.

Okay I’ll see you guys in like 2 weeks time, pray that I’ll be alive till then.

Class story and Joanne’s tag then. 

p/s    Bear with my schedule Amir and Fleur :( I will make it to TCPJ. Someday Siigh. 

Hugs.

Virtuous sensibility
Escape velocity
Nothing can compare

Soundtrack: Finley Quaye & William Orbit- Dice

Feeling: Numb

I am walking a whole new path.

For not ending up right back at the start. Curiosity pondered.

This was all 2 months ago.

Chinese New Year - I definitely forgot to make a point that mine was absolutely fantabulous, or did I? I went back the mum’s side hometown, Tanjung Karang and everything was beautiful. The atmosphere, the people, the food, the fire cracker show, even the TV programmes sounds way better. It’s the only night worth not sleeping at all with so many things to do. Poker, fire cracker, prayers, red packets and food. No time to sleep honestly. So then we got back to Subang and meet up with mums old friend. Old friends with very cute daughters and more to relate to.

Happy Burpday- To Alicia Hew firstly. It was yesterday. Stay Allie in Monash we shall meet up pretty soon, yes. And then to GOH LIJEN whom is celebrating today. Fly far out there okay and take care :0) Next up, Happy belated to ME. This is a dedicated context to Emily’s hyper long wishing card, 45 songs Ev sang for me in RedBox(okie lah not for me more likely merely for preparation to Jay Chou concert cheh), Sms-es frm Fleur, Siew Ying, and most importantly sms-es from my freaking classmates whom sent at one go after a countdown. My phone got hang stuck for 2 hours before I could reply a thank you. I am surrounded by playfulness. But haha funny. I was in the middle of crossing KL streets mind you when my phone vibrated non-stop. A total of 27 Happy Birthday, I counted. :0) Who else OH YES and also to Drew Barrymore, James Blunt and Steve Irwin wtf. We are all triple 2 troop. February air is always the best.    

TOA- My assignments together are bigger than you and me. It is almost a must to at least redo once on that black piece of artworks to satisfy your expectation. I mean, mine. And when people screamed no life at me, I’ll go like I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it.  For the sake of motivation and keeping my heads clear. Don’t you dare complain much on assignments, cause you have no idea. 11 assignments due in a week. No explanation will do to make you get a clear field on this one, unless you have a semester starting here. So sigh. Just imagine me being cooked by a witch but I am happy inside cause I like what am I doing, being inside a cooking pot. Or something like that.

Vote, - After much nagging and heartfelt lessons from Mr. Indy and Tah Eve Lynn. And Pinkpau, yes. One thing though, we are currently standing against the wrong things together, yes, but in different sub cultures, and that’s not the right way to work things. That’s one fair point I had in my mind right now that I would like to share. So before we urged, especially youngsters to vote, it is only fair to first teach them the mindset of voting. Yet, it is also true to say that you should shut your mouth from complaining the weakness of the government when you are not even quite moving your ass to vote. That is why and how Malaysia got recognized as the fastest growing country with pretty cities like KL and a bunch of eat and drink rich government, yet HOW we did it was the questioned raised up long time ago wasn’t it? When there are still more than half of poor societies out there. Therefore, choose to vote in a right way, shall we? Oh and yeah one things that REALLY BUGS ME on this issue, WHY ON EARTH IS OUR PROMOTIONAL CAMPAIGN CONCEPT SO LAO YAH ONE?! Zero sense of creativity man with just fugly wallpaper sticking around on TREES. What the hell lah. Can we at least make something beautiful or more elegent style like Americas one?! Damn sad case wei seeing Badawis face on the trees or a light pole. Set up a billboard lah for godsake. Or do something like THIS( Yes We Can)  awesome possum music video by US Artists. Those wallpaper are a bucketful of disaster okay.

American Idol- First and foremost, I AM REALLY IMPRESSED WITH THIS SEASON. Season 7 by far remained the crowd of best talent ever seen. Unlike Carrie Underwood’s season which was SO BLOODY PREDICTABLE as everyone else sang like uh predictable, I am in love with this season starting from the auditions itself. Period. Okay I have no idea WHY BOUT THIS, but as mentioned previous, I am more than emotional. I am way beyond that. So to see very talented people talking bout their stories, struggle-juggle and then get kicked out cruelly was a hard deal for me. So I cried along. And I cry, cry, and cry. Damn sad okay, for example Josiah Leming who didn’t make it to the top 24 when he a splendid Mika cover here, then went utterly devastated and broke down at here. Cant blame him people as he was struggling for a career, living in a freaking car at the age of 16 just to pursue his dream out of unsupportive family and I UNDERSTOOD HOW IT FELT OKAY. So I cried along. Personally I think David Hernandez should be booted instead of him cause he is one hell performer okay, although I also liked David Hernandez (See my pain!? Why am I like that?!) Hollywood Week was even more crucial and a total of unmerciful weather. Even the 3 judges admitted that it was a pain to let go so many others of them, and a pain for me to hear them packing their belongings on the way to some winding road, quoting, I don’t know where shall I begin with now. I also developed a huge feverish on Kyle Ensley. I was stereotyping again at first, but hell no this dude not only can sing but he is also probably one of the most sincere dude in the room. Listen to his You Raise Me Up here. Simon was totally frustrated to let him go imagine that, because he is unique, honestly. Aiyoh to Paula and Randy. And last but not least, DAVID ARCHULATA. Homg I am obsessed with this dude lah. My bet is on him winning and I love all things about him arggh. Shy and down to earth, he is so blardy likable. Damn you David haters of the world, he is awesome okay. Awesome-not gay. His cover of Imagine was oh my god breathtaking, no one sings like he does and that was one of the MOST BEAUTIFUL PERFORMANCE EVER on the Idol stage. It was like Jason Mraz coated with sugar good. Watch him singing at the age of uh 11, with Kelly Clarkson being the audience getting way impressed here. Also look out for Brooke White.

Okay I know, you guys cant wait to slap me on head already.

Just watch the last part here okay where those who were so close to it yet so far away saying goodbyes, with this season theme song playing in the background. I CRIED LIKE SHIT AT THAT PART, you have no idea. I’m a freaking sadist.

“Be Happy, Love your Life, Love Each Other” Walked away.

Oh and FYI I got hold of the theme song long time ago. Its called Hollywood’s not America by Ferras.

Ear Medicine – I have a few songs worth your time. Email me if you do want them.

(continued.) 

9.        zheng joo says:

eh emily i give u sheep

: Emily .  says:

FOR WHAT? DOLLY AR

: Emily .  says:

she die edi wei

: Emily .  says:

dont tell me u dono she died

: Emily .  says:

haha or u giv me her anak

zheng joo says:

wtf whos dolly

: Emily .  says:

HOMG U DONO AR? HAHAHAHAHAH another scientist value from emily

zheng joo says:

OWH i noe edi

: Emily .  says:

let me tell u dolly is the what lah

zheng joo says:

I NOE EDI LAH

: Emily .  says:

the no sex sheep

: Emily .  says:

so cool! humans should apply it

: Emily .  says:

DAM GOOD. den no edison chen stuff

: Emily .  says:

no horny porny thing woot.

zheng joo says:

FINE i give u snail

: Emily .  says:

HAHAHAHAHA snail lol. i will take the snail and teman my turtle

: Emily .  says:

because my turtle so lonely after his/her life partner died

: Emily .  says:

and hor that turtle was suppose to be yk's one

: Emily .  says:

i wanna giv him for his birthday, den while my taxi on the way to his house

: Emily .  says:

HE CALL ! : "emily EMILY wth u bought? dont scare me!"

"uh turtle?"

"OMGG.  *conversation with his mom*

* MY PARENTS DONT LET US HAVE PETS! sorry ar"

"wtf."

hangs the phone down.

zheng joo says:

WTF lol OWH so thats the yk punya

: Emily .  says:

HAHAHAHAHHAHAA YA LAH

: Emily .  says:

den i name it all den after that i piss

: Emily .  says:

eh all togetehr with the container and food all around 20 +

zheng joo says:

the 50 cent tortoise?

: Emily .  says:

no 50 cents u con me

: Emily .  says:

i damn sad okay, tot wanna giv surprise. now i get a big SHIT burden starving turtle

zheng joo says:

... okie fine nah em i give u cat then

: Emily .  says:

can i cook it?

: Emily .  says:

okay no wtf i wont. uh i hate cat lah

: Emily .  says:

dont u remember i say throwing the cat INTO the sun

: Emily .  says:

shit wei. wth WHY CAT! u know how horny are cats? HAR HAR. they like to meow. and please its NOT seductive. ITS annoying

zheng joo says:

not to u also

: Emily .  says:

sumore they damn dirty. and think they damn cute. shit wei. with the ears all. pointy ears. confirm they are some kena ditch species of tiger last time

: Emily .  says:

den they end up BEING a cat! ewww. sad lah they all

: Emily .  says:

wanna be tiger. but evolution happens, so they de-prove and be a cat

: Emily .  says:

later on, being thrown by emilywong to the sun

: Emily .  says:

eh stop giving me animals i lazy type HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

zheng joo says:

omg Emily you worst creature on earth, I speechless.

10.     zheng joo says:

eh geoff i give u sheep

geoffrey says:

zj i give you back

zheng joo says:

give me bak wat

geoffrey says:

your sheep haha tak da emoticon sorry

zheng joo says:

eh take lah the sheep

geoffrey says:

i try. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

geoffrey says:

too far la. susah to reach. and he fat too

geoffrey says:

beraaaat

zheng joo says:

good lah i gave u a fat sheep leh

geoffrey says:

no skinny one ke? can carry like backpack

zheng joo says:

no. skinny wan means got disease knot

geoffrey says:

haha mad cow disease?

geoffrey says:

sorry la, so late

geoffrey says:

i become lame

11.     zheng joo says:

qihan i give you sheep

^ Qihan ^ Zelp says:

          = =!!! why u suddenly Wanna give me sheep?

zheng joo says:

cause i feel like giving lah

^ Qihan ^ Zelp says:

u very stress o?

zheng joo says:

yesss and sheeps are cute'

^ Qihan ^ Zelp says:

ok cute cute then

12.     zheng joo says:

jiyung eh jiyung i give you sheep

jiyung says:

umm....thank you. but..what will I do with it? =/

zheng joo says:

rare it, like mary

jiyung says:

ohh..okay can I name it Sheep?

zheng joo says:

yes course then its call jiyung had a lil Sheep wtf

jiyung says:

ahaha! okay =D

13.     zheng joo says:

eh joel! i give u sheep

Joel says:

sleep la u

Joel says:

i got revision to do exam on monday

Joel says:

ciaaaaaaao

Joel says:

annoying

zheng joo says:

 ....

Joel appears to be offline…

14.     zheng joo says:

eh tiny i give you sheep

[υМλ] says:

sheep?!? O_O:

zheng joo says:

yes sheep take it

[υМλ] says:

i can giv u rabbit('.')

zheng joo says:

why the whoe world give me that one??!?! THAT DOESNT EVEN LOOK LIKE RABBIT

[υМλ] says:

lol its on msn, new emoticon

zheng joo says:

it looks like some marshmallow cotton candy dude

15.     zheng joo says:

eh dude i give you sheeep

tfd | Wai Hong says:

What sheeeep

zheng joo says:

sheepSHEEP LAH

tfd | Wai Hong says:

WHY SHEEP

tfd | Wai Hong says:

I HATE SHEEPS

zheng joo says:

y hate sheeps?

tfd | Wai Hong

DUNNO

tfd | Wai Hong

So random Give me sheep

zheng joo says:

yeah means u have one sheep in pocket edi

tfd | Wai Hong says:

WHAT

tfd | Wai Hong says:

You're weird la juice

tfd | Wai Hong says:

What the heck

zheng joo says:

i not juice lah ! wth juice sounds SO

zheng joo says:

JUICE

zheng joo says:

ewww its like i call you wai horse instead of wai hong

tfd | Wai Hong says:

What

tfd | Wai Hong says:

The

tfd | Wai Hong says:

Heck

tfd | Wai Hong says:

  : (

16.     zheng joo says:

eh sheun yeow i give u sheep

32 | Sheun Yeow says:

and i wonder why =/

32 | Sheun Yeow says:

whatever makes ur night more interesting man.

I shall do award presentation.

Best bullshit award: No.3 Emily Wong, everything under the sun man.

Best Zha Dou award: No.16 Joel, ask me go sleep wth.

Best storyline award: No.11 Geoffrey, a fat sheep.

Best reply award: No.4 Fleur, her dog will rape my sheep wtf.

Shortest answer award: No.5 Kar Weng-“wtf”

Most Out of Topic award- No. 19 Wai Hong, argue on and on bout names, sheep forgotten. He PMS sial lah.

Most reply award- No.1 Amir & No. 18 Tiny, gave me ('.') so called rabbit. Where got alike?!

And not even a freaking word mentioned on LAMB CHOP. Clearly, Pinkpau and I have different circles of kawan haha.

But seriously from bottom of my heart, I salute Emily Wong May Lings one.

“DOLLY, The No Sex Sheep”

Fuiyoh. I nearly vomit blood.

(Edited)
Later reply on Emily's sheep experiment answers (she called it animal planet experment wtf) by Ev:

ev- says:

i like WTH!dam sesat all

-ev- says:

i tink if u give her rabbit

-ev- says:

she aso sure say sumting sakai like

-ev- says:

em- fuiyo rabbit

-ev- says:

can reproduce alot wan

-ev- says:

den keep eating grass

-ev- says:

dats y australia import dunno wad dog to eat them

ROFL. Ev’s THE MAN.

That’s merely a constant flashback of my memory. I still have tons.

But there’s still a forest to go. Till then.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live.

Soundtrack: Jimmy Eat World- Hear You Me

Feeling: Everything

To All Married Couples and To All Future Couples:

LOVE WHAT U ARE GIFTED WITH RATER THAN LOVING WHATEVER PASSING BY

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wifes divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking >from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office, jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind, I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: "I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart" ”

If we discovered that we only had five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that they loved them.

 -Christopher Morley

Happy Valentines Day.

Feeling: Exhausted

Soundtrack: Jack Johnson-Traffic In The Sky

Benazir Bhutto killed in suicide attack at rally.

16-year-old Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant.

And the fact that the Spears mum are actually writing Parenting Book?!

Yah right I'd buy, NICE JOB ON YOUR DAUGHTERS.

Whats wrong with the world, honestly.

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Late Update: Pictures Gallery on FICM Dara's Farm Outing


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Eleanor Roosevelt said,
“Great minds discuss ideas.
Average minds discuss events.
Small minds discuss people.”

I shall discuss all three of them cause my mind resize all the time. Pardon me.

Long flights. Long escapes. Took a bus, took a train, took a plane and many others that cast iron to put you closer to stars and boulevards. Just everyday people, trying to make sense of this puzzle called life, and falling in love with the girl who is not in front of them. I have seen that all in 17 years. And who am I today? As far as memory could stretch, I'm an accident out of the motion and proof of living, after the conjoin of sperms and ovum. To serve a purpose to the world, creating history, to choose my own directions, to perform my own act on stage and fulfill my own dreams, to paint my own perspective and perception when sitting down in a pavement, watching the world goes dark with the sunset, to witness my accomplishment and commit them to remember.

Many of us have constantly forgotten on how to decide for themselves. Many forgot that parents only hold the responsibilities on building our ethic and giving us the right life and home to stop by when we are a little lost. A little advice perhaps. Just and only that. Then from there onwards, we all choose our own path. Period. I am not being naïve on this cause truthfully to say, as long as it feels right and there's just this magic running through your fingertips on doing that one thing, you know you are destined for it. So, go run for it and never look back. Not even when your dad blew a thousand yards away with his clear mind of objection, or tactless unkind feedback your ears betrayed on and feed you with. Even if it's making up one mind on getting a tattoo on your back, you've got fully the right to have it be cause this is your life! Your one and only, never returning life. And being creative is one of the steps taken. Creativity is everywhere, it is what you are made of, in every way you spend your money on, every article you choose to read, every music you choose to rely on, everyway and everything. 

And as soon as you start believing all those dumb fold crap piece shits, in other word, when you start believing on your weaknesses that would fault you and ignoring little voices in your head reminding you that once upon a time passion or that small lil one thing you wished to spend the rest of your life doing it, well, you are fucked.

You start growing tired and lead yourself to others expectation on yours.

You begin to follow paths written by others. Where's yours, have you ever wonder? 

Hence, its really not so bad to listen to that voice in your head, really.

Its your best friend.

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I dont wanna be fucked. (Sorry people, for cursing, thats just merely a noun.)

So I choose to move on. Jan 7th will be a whole new start. So yeah no more just in case, I am officially moving into TOA. I know, I am getting VERY crappy here, and its gonna get even more corny below, but honestly, this is supposed to be a corny post. So just, shut up and bear with me.

More conundrums to come. And I shall be missing the FICM batch so much, which brings me back to high school bucket again. I feel sad, truly. Somehow I always come across with all this crap just because I have a half tank more of emotions than others.

I'm gonna missed everything.

The scrappy bench I used to sit on every early morning, when I cant even see how many fingers am I pointing out even cause it was so freaking dark, and slapping mosquitoes till my world goes round and round; the fact that our campuses looks more like some sort of hippie living place and shared with working environment than what a campus should be; the walking distance from ground floor to the lift watching every stall getting busy a day ahead cooking their dishes; the uncle selling fruits that lived to greet us Good morning everyday; the habit of Syaf taking stairs instead of life; various mini shop that sells everything under the sky; 7-Eleven!; the secret garden located between two tall standing buildings, the sucky prawn mee; the funny little sculpture, the secret bedroom that Kien discovered and then sleep dead on it; everything bout student helper; the couch in Student council; the library!! homg hell I am gonna missed that best library on earth with 13 state room for us to roar in and making sure that a good scolding is kindly return; the 7th floor with the best fried rice; Roach Café with chapatti (drools) and that ever so good Lychi drink; M-Café; the Media Hulb-our basement for telling ghost stories and the days of sneaking in foods and drinks; CR-26 hoho; the talking lady inside the lift; that two butt-comfort sofas inside Student Services; the toilet! wide and providing tissues with fan T_T; the train station (I wont be able to have this one anymore in TOA, so I am really gonna darn hell missed this one); the waffles shop!; and whatever's left, I shall be with it.

Good times. Bad times. Panic shit times. Hectic times. Chilling times. Group hugs times. Emo times. Wtf times. Over time, all of that changed. This would mean, friends and peeps. Hello now and goodbye after you make your last remark on this post. I see you people everyday man, like 5 days a week! I am really not ready to leave, at all. I still need 24.45 years to let this entire diffuse dude. And if I ever did wronged you, stepped on your feet, stare instead of smiling at you, or even if I ever did ignored you, forgive the dense. I really am not born to smile and I know that this might gave you an impression of me as deaf and dumb, or that I am a orphanage since young, or even worst, scared you into any bit (quoted by Leonard's gang), I'm truly sorry on that.

I could stay here for ages, there is so much to see and remember. The time when Alicia broke her heels and she have to marathon bare footed across the campus with me to get a slippers;

the time when me and Dara actually stood in front of a gigantic art gallery poster in KL, figuring out on how to get there, only to realize that the event's two days ago;

the time when the whole class just gushed up their every single last bit of creativity juice and breath to run Metamorphosis like swirling mad cows;

the times when we had all the fun in Amazing Hunt and watching Wei Jinn spitting out his first gulp of my so called bitter-good-for-health-water;

the times when we watched dramas everywhere with a handful of imaginary popcorns and Pepsi;

the times when Fleur and Sue would get started on their body issue topic and I would fall asleep;

the times when Kien excused himself when he's just resting his eyes ;

the times when we would spammed our thirst on bubble-tea until waffles stall appeared;

the times where we have spent our afternoon naps at Wei Hong's;

the times when we just so happened to laugh out loud at a 180 high pitched degree and went whoops when the surrounding starts to stare;

the times when our random nerves burst opened and got us started on movies in cinema with their hilarious rojak BM subtitle, etc: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets-Magik, The Day after Tomorrow-Lusa, Hannibal Rising-Orang makan Orang;

the times when Geoff would start off his day with tap dancing and changing face singing;

the times when Amir starts the shake and vibrate to kill me lol;

the times when Amir and Kar Weng get started on cat meowing in the car, homg nightmare;

the times when we smartly squeezed into Frankie, Amir's car, as in we-8 large human being cause we were deprived of waffles in Pyramid;

the amount of noise contributed by us in the class which might cured the deaf;

the pouring over books moment in library;

the endless meeting in the library;

those 2 hours on my butt and the pool area's chair rejoin moment;

those wtf moments after Dr Leans paper and the challenge on counting each of our turns to read out the next question, and get the right answers of it before it reaches your turn, boy that was hectic;

the times when Robin would go on and on with his uhm very own terms of greetings with me;

the times when Kien would suddenly zoomed in his face right in front of you like what Dobby did to Harry Potter;

the time when everybody requested Nash to shut up and laughed at him when he dropped down with his chair twice, heh;

the switching period of moving frm back rows to the front seats;

the time when we actually finished Econs assignment in 2 hours;

the time when Wei Hong and Don managed to lure Jason into some balcony and locked him up;

the craps to deal with in Hello!;

those days on Zero Filming;

the times when I kept offering Dara food during Puasa period and then gasp whoops and say sorry after 2 seconds;

the times when Tash would offered a hug ( yes I actually would missed that...);

the times of selling chocolate coated stuff and messing around with it,

the time when me and Jason got busy banging and cracking the Photostat machine while working;

the time when Fleur screams and screams and screams and then starts on her strangling power when I accidentally cut my finger while inserting prospector and she saw a sight of red blood;

the times when Leroy, my men tee would pulled a face when I started his day with: So, any problem around the college? instead of Hi Leroy, whats your hobbies? :)  ;

the times when I lost my count on zillions of green bean when Kien and Wei Jinn started to sing, on purpose;

the times when Wei Jinn announced my other identity-Sparkles cause I look like his dog(ish);

the times when Wei Hong started on his laughter;

speaking of laughter, Tash's laughter that would shaked the world awake;

the times when Robin persuading customers to buy muffins. "Whats better than buying one muffin? you buy TWO muffins" "..to help the cacated cat, cacated dog and cacated grasshopper.";

heck, I would even missed the times where Joel would stopped by to place a good whack on my head and serenely singing lullaby: "who farted, zheng joo farted.." when we shared the same lift filled with people;

those wunnerful eating pleasure when Joseph forced me down with his newly baked Choc Chip cookies. Choc Chip cookies that tasted heavenly awesome, and then he would grinned proudly and started to brag hah;

And so damn blardy much more. I am so gonna cry my ass off if I continue.

So people, I shall dedicate this to you.

to alicia hew, thank you for every damn tips on everything and sticking up for me all the time, except for that bimbo theory;  for layaning my every damn complain, and for belanja-ing me on Starbucks

to fleur, thank you for the patience and sharing your quirky smile every single damn moment, I shall ignore the fact that you are actually the world most powerful woman, as in POWERful heh

to surekha, thank you for the listening, good movies and songs, and one year of tumpang-ing at your houses, I shall remember you and your mum for lifetime, for all the time we ranted together sharing family stories ehem :)

to dara, thank you for all the hugs and supports, and for joining me to a toilet trip gladly every time

to amir my dad, thank you for being my random rants comrade with all the endless funny conversation and talking, for your listening that I know you actually care for, and for seeing what other guys totally dont see in me haha

to  jason, thank you for always being there on my side and for never judging on me

to winnie, thank you for lending me your ipod all the time and your love for david boreanaz too haha

to robin, thank you for your serious talk with me when I failed to hand in my first assignment, making sure I dont kill myself and for the artsy calendar, comes from bottom of your heart I know :)

to wei jinn, thank you for all the help and free rides, albeit you being very cruel to me all the time, and the coconut drink

to kien, thank you for being a retard, so positively optimism when we worked on Genesis project, cause it really was infectious for me, so thank you, and also for free rides, again, and those L'Oreal products haha

to wei hong, thank you for all the laughter we shared together

to geoffrey, thank you for all the bearing during the Zero filming

to syafiq, thank you for the good performances

to rachel au and alissa, thank you for being my first friend in college

to joel, thank you for talking to me again

to mr indy, thank you for the conversations and compliment that would changed my life

to kar weng, thank you for being funny and weirdly you

to daren, thank you much for picking up the role in Zero and for chats that are never boring

to melissa, thank you for being so sweet and nice to me, like a sis

to nash, thank you for all the craps and moments

to miss t, thank you for all the advice and very cool classes

to mun suet, thank you for being a friend

to jing, thank you for all the guidance and free rides

to tash, thank you for liking me haha

to jesslyn, thank you for that warm smile from you every single day

to the chinese gang, thank you for knowing you

to ozzy, thank you for being so weirdly you and telling me your Chinese name, you still owe me a hug

to matthew g, thank you for the inspiration and comments

to prakash, thank you for being so funny and noisy

to kuhen, thank you for telling the whole world I stopped by your house to kill you with a knife haha

to nadia, thank you for your very interesting life story

to max, thank you for poking me all the time and talked to me as a dog

to robin, munsuet, jason and alot more, thank you guys for calling and sang Burpday songs, live, I did not forget.

to all the taylors stuff, thank you for your guidance and advice

to my men tee Leroy and Michelle, thank you for all the time we had :)

to the fruit stall uncle, thank you for all the free food and your generosity

to qiki, thank you for your sharing in photography

to sumitra, thank you for your accompany and talk while waiting for the damn bus

to joseph, thank you for the cookies

And if your names not in here, thank you for your understanding that my page limit is giving out warning sign, I love you guys.

                    

                     Clock just struck 12. I hope you they would make you smile in this New Year. Merry Happy. 
                       

  
                                                  " I'm singing a long song in the end,
                                                              This is what I got "

                     I smell a hectic life ahead. 
                     Bye Bye people, and good luck.